To all the father's

Happy Father's Day to all of my Fathers

I love you all.

Hope your day is great.

My Dad,  Charlie or as I call him Chucky Baby

Kersten's Dad and Grandpa Heinz

Papa Al

Opa Rolf,  Kersten's Grandpa

Classic Sofia

I love this picture of tweet-um Doo or Sofia  this is when we were building the rooms in Gearold and Emilee's house.  Sofia painted the floor for us.  This totally captures my daughter,  chocolate smeared all over her face, dirty from head to toe and getting into mischief.  I asked her one morning when she showed up mysteriously with chocolate on her face if she can sniff out chocolate and as clear as day she said "Yes".  She is like Kersten's family,  all the woman in his family are crazy about chocolate

I.....

i am... a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and not quite human but a dancer for sure
i think... about crafts, blogs, my children and my hot husband.
i know... that the Church is true (that is the first thing that came to mind)
i want... my own house,  a place to call home with my children
i have... so many blessings to be grateful for.
i dislike... being told what to do
i miss... running around in my underwear
i fear... failure,  it holds me back more than I would like
i feel... it is so important to let your children use their imaginations to find out who they are
i hear.... my Jedi knight son fighting bad guys upstairs.
i smell... white cheddar Cheez-it and Noah's hair (he is sitting on my lap)

i crave.... watermelon, little chickens and ice cream.
i cry... more than I use too but still not enough
i usually... tickle my children after any discipline. When we are through with it.
i search... for perfect mother moments and time with my husband
i wonder.... about the near future.
i regret... the consequences of my health.
i love...my life and my little family
i worry...too much.  I lay up at night worrying
i am not... as organized as I would like
i remember... random details
i believe... in miracles
i dance... frequently
i don't... like being in limbo
i write...not enough, and it never comes out like it did in my head
i win... on tuesdays

i struggle... with what to feed my children and thinking about food.
i lose... when I compete with my son.  He is really fast getting ready.
i wish... that people would actually hear what others say not just listen
i listen... to my children's laughter
i don't understand...why people hurt other people's feelings
i can usually be found...on the computer, reading a book or on the floor with my kids.
i am scared... that we won't make it
i need to lose.. the bad habit of playing with my hair
i forget...  the tiny details.
i am happy... when I am with my little family

Robot Hand

Have any of you ever seen a Robot Hand on a real boy?  Well, I definitely have.  My son Noah,  oh, sorry again but his name is Anakin.  He is always correcting me.  He lost his hand in a battle with Count Dooku.  And now it is  mechanical and he wears this glove 24/7 days a week.  He says his hand is gold and black.  In the old Clone Wars movies there is a scene when they lift up the golden hand and say "Hocasset" which means Ghost Hand in that alien language.  He asks me to be the old shaman and lift his hand and say this over and over again.  We laugh and think it great fun.

He started wearing both his Darth Vader gloves to school everyday in April, about the time we learned we had to move.  He then started wearing just one.  I thought it cool kind of a Michael Jackson thing.   He has a fit when we have to wash it.  It gets really stinky as you can imagine. His hand now that it is warm outside is always really sweaty. He wears it sleeping, running, fighting, playing at all times.  He is very good about taking it off to go potty and wash his hands.  What a good boy.  He knows where his glove is at all times.  He loves it.  
I figure it is one of those things that is not worth the fight.  So he even wears the glove to church.  The other day on our way to primary, he got really emotional and started acting really upset.  He told me he did not want anyone to see his robot hand.  I told him not to worry for he could just keep his glove on the whole time.  He is a bit stressed about his new class .  It turned out perfectly for they were talking about the Holy Ghost in class.  

And they used his glove as an object lesson.  He loves participating so it worked out well.  And now his teacher understands to be sensitive about his robot hand.  It worked out well.
He was really thrilled and corporative when I asked him to take pictures of his hand.  I have had lots of people comment and ask about his gloved hand.  I figure you only get to be 5 once in your life.  In his mind he is really good guy Anakin before he starts making bad choices and becomes Darth Vader.  So of course he has to have a robot hand.  And he found the glove to protect it.  I have asked if he wants authentic gloves just like Anakins, he says yes but only as a backup glove when this one has to be washed.  What a silly creative little man 

My Grandma turns 90

My favorite Grandma Billie turned 90 on Monday.  

That in and of itself is quite impressive.  

We had a small party for her at my mom's house on Sunday.

It was my sister Em's birthday that day so we doubled the celebration.

So here are the two birthday girls while they are being sung too.

Here are some of my favorite photos of that day.

My Mom Jeanne and her Mom Blanche or "Billie"

After dinner etc, all of us kids and my mom told my Grandma some of our

favorite memories of her and while we love her.

We all were crying the whole time and we videotaped it too.

Here is my brother Nik expressing his love.

Self Portrait of Noah and me.  He is so darn handsome

Love this boy

Me and my Girl.  Oh my sweet Sofia tweetum Doo

Sister in Law,...Lena at her best

Amy or Mimi 

Sofia pushing her brother all around the driveway.  

She likes to take charge.

All the kids and my dear sweet husband played with sidewalk chalk outside

while we were all inside crying.

It was really good times.  Happy Birthday Grandma

We are having the big extended party when my aunt and family come in July

My Conversation with the Boys before Bed

 Spencer: "Noah has a cute Butt.  He should put a tatoo on it that says Hot Mama"

Me: "So would I be the hot Mama, since I am his mom?"

Spencer: "No, it would be Jaden at my school, she is a hot mama"

Noah laughing this entire time

Me: "Noah, do you think any girls are hot?"\

Noah: "You and baby"

Me "Ahh, Noah that is really nice of you to say.  Do you think any girls at school or church are hot?"

Noah:"Oh, YES, lots and lots of girls.

Spencer: "What about Lily?"

Noah:  "No she is my bud"

Me: "What about Taye or Adrianna?"

Noah: "Oh YES, Taye has long hair and Adrianna wears flowers."

"I like hot girls, Mom."

Spencer; "Lou, can I tell you how I fell in love with Jaden?"

It was the first day of school and I walked in the room and saw her in my class.  And bam I fell in love and then I fainted.

Me: Well, Spence I did not hear about you fainting on the first day of school that is a big deal.

Spencer: Well, that is because I fainted in my mind

Me:  "Oh, well that makes sense."

Spencer:  I want a tatoo on my butt that says Hot Mama Jaden

Me:  Well you should have your Uncle Nik draw it for you so that it looks professional.  It would look pretty cool that way. 

Spencer:  I am going to call Uncle Nik

Noah: "Me too Mom"

My life in Pictures

Here are pictures from before and during my illness in my life.  That is how it feels now.  I am actually moving around today which feels like a miracle.  My doc told me that I had Bronchitis that was on it's way to Pneumonia. So he gave me some super hard core antibiotics and now 3 days later I feel like I could have been human once.  We all still have that horrible hacking cough but we are on the mend which is good.  

Here is Noah on his last day at school holding a snake.

At the Snakes and Tails program.

See how his cheeks are flushed,  this is the start of his fevers

This is Twinkletoes the tortoise, Noah walked back and forth with him for about 10 min

These are Noah's best friends from school.  

Camden, Lily and Noah, The Three Musketeers

Sofia's First Haircut

She had to play with Dad's face to distract her

There are so many advantages to having a sister as a professional hair stylist.

Amy and Sofia.  After the haircut.

Noah in the process of his cut.

I laid on the couch to watch so I would not miss the first haircut of Babe. 

Noah was feeling manly with his shirt off and he did the cutest dance when 

he was getting sprayed with water

Good times