I read on a blog, a friend was wishing her friend Happy Birthday. In her post she listed bullet points of all these things she loved most about her friend. It was touching and cute. I stalk both their blogs and leave comments very irregularly. I started reading the comments and the friend who was having a birthday,first talked about how disconcerting it was to see her face pop up on her friends blog and then made the comment "I like myself a lot better in your eyes."
I really started thinking a lot after this. How nice it would be to see ourselves more often in the eyes of the people who love us in spite of ourselves. I wish that I saw myself more through the eyes of my sweet husband. I first of all would know what he is thinking half the time instead of trying to beat it out of him. But more importantly, I would probably know that I am the most beautiful woman he has ever seen. (He tells me this every day and I am still working on believing him). I would laugh at myself a lot more and take things more with a grain of salt. I would be able not to stress myself to sickness hoping to make him happy. For I would know that he is happy with me just by being me and does not need me to worry so much. I think this would be really nice
I also thought it would be nice for some of the people that I love to see themselves through my eyes. Like the fabulous Mara, who is so stylish and ambitious. And is the most amazing mother to her boys. I know I could not do all she does for those boys. They are lucky to have her. Or my friend, Kieran who can make anything look beautiful and has the most creative amazing, inspiration brain I have ever encountered. She can always make me laugh and can accomplish more in one day than I can in a week. Or my sister Amy, who has found an amazing talent with hair. She works so hard to learn all she can. And now she is a wizard with hair. All the sacrifices she has made will be worth it. These are just three examples of woman I love who are quite amazing. If I wrote about all of you I love who read this blog this post would be way to long but you get the idea and don't be offended that I did not write about you for I hope you know how much I love you all. I try to show the people I love that I love them
Anyway what I was really getting to in this post, is I am going to try to start looking at myself the way my Heavenly Father sees me. Okay I know that was and abrupt change. But if my sweet husband, my amazing friends and family think I am pretty cool. If I try to see myself the way my Heavenly Father does, I would never lose confidence in myself, put myself down, curse at my after baby body or critizize my mothering or wife skills. If I just continue to strive to be what I know I am, which is a daughter of God. A woman who is trying to do what is right and good, in spite of the influence around her. Than I can not lose. As woman I think we struggle more to see our worth and how amazing we really are. We all try to sugar coat things so that we have the illusion of a perfect life. But the reality of it all is that we all will struggle, That is what we are here on earth for is to learn, We all will have bad days where we will want to pull out our hair. I for one am going to start reminding myself of the love my Father in Heaven has for me and maybe it will all be just a little bit better.
